Yep. We booked an impromptu last minute trip for the upcoming week. We are very excited! We are going to Punta Cana in the Dominican Republic for six days to a beautiful all inclusive, adults only resort right on the beach! We can't wait. More details later. Just wanted to share my good news!
How Much Longer?
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Is she serious?
Really now! C'mon. Why would anyone even say something like this?!?!? If she is so concerned about "bad karma" coming back to you from your actions, well...in my opinion, she should be really concerned about herself after saying something like this! I don't want to judge her or anyone else. I get that she is upset about the treatment of the Tibetans, but really, was this comment necessary? Especially, since the vast majority of the people suffering are certainly not the ones making the decisions on a government level. UGH. She basically said that they deserved what has happened to them due to the actions of their government. What a terrible thing to say.
http://omg.yahoo.com/sharon-stone-was-china-quake-bad-karma/news/9386?nc
Saturday, May 24, 2008
It's Pouring Here
Literally & figuratively pouring. It has been raining all day...from the sky, but from my heart too, the emotions are gushing like the rain is falling & coming with those emotions are occassional rain drops from my eyes...okay, at times they have been more than drops. I am just having a bad day. I miss our "Emma". I knew that I would have bad days & I guess this is just one of them. I just hurt. That is the only way or word that I know to explain it. It is a painful ache that won't go away. It was a month this past Thursday that Thomas placed her back in her birthmother's arms. My heart is sick with grief; a grief that never gives me a vacation. It is always here with me. It is a new unwelcomed addition to my being & it is hard on my soul.
Our adoption agency emailed us letting us know that Ethiopia has a really good program going right now. It is a rough estimate, but within a year we most likely if not before could be home with a baby & possibly a sibling set. It would take some time to get the dossier done, but since we have done that before it wouldn't likely be too bad. I don't know...sometimes I think we should just wait. I think about doing In Vitro, I think about getting in line for another country while we wait for our China referral, I think about waiting to see what happens with a possible situation with someone who has offered to possibly have a baby for us (time will tell as they are dealing with some personal things that must be resolved first)...but all the while in the back of my mind I just keep thinking of ways that we could possibly get Emma back. I fear every day that I will never be able to let that go & every day she slips away from us a little more.
I know that is hasn't been that long ago. A month, right? My emotions are still so new & I am still processing what has happened. I just can't imagine that time will ever take this pain away.
Maybe it is me. Maybe I don't want to move on. I know that I don't have a choice though, so I might as well get over it or at least learn how to deal with my reality & go from there.
Plan for tomorrow...spend the day with Thomas doing something fun. That will put a smile on my face & in my heart too. It always does! He understands that behind my smile is a sadness right now that won't go away, as he carries that same sadness deep within him . I hold no expectation for myself to "be better" tomorrow, however, I do hope that the day will be better & that for now will have to be enough.
Buckle Up!
For all of you that will sooner or later be traveling & enduring that long flight home with your wiggling little one or for any friends or family flying anywhere with kids in tow I wanted to share this great information. Check this new invention out at http://www.kidsflysafe.com/ Great idea, huh? Sure beats lugging a car seat through the airport!
"One Child At A Time"
Ya Xing Kai is living in an orphanage in China. She has Spina Bifida & needs a life saving surgery. Check out this auction site dedicated to providing the funding for her surgery. This is one way that we can all get involved & literally help one child at a time!
http://justonechildatatime.blogspot.com/
What a great idea! HAPPY BIDDING!
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